My parents and I were driving back from Coeur D'Alene, Idaho yesterday when we got the call. We went straight to the hospital after driving 12 hours and made it in time. He was born at 2 AM today. I spent the night at the hospital and haven't slept still. He's in the NICU for help with breathing, 5 lbs. 12 oz., and the family has been notified. She hasn't gotten to hold him yet because she is being treated for pre-eclampsia still and is groggy. I will go back tonight.
This is Love
Kris Kroeker 2005, dedicated to my child's birthmom
I know you love me
You loved me from the start
I know that you want the best for me
I know this because you made a plan for me
A plan so I would grow up with my mom and dad
A mom and dad you knew would love me as much as you do
I know it tore your heart apart to make this plan for me
I know it hurt when you put me first
I know that you feel the pain of empty arms
I know that my pictures are spread across your walls to try and fill the hole
You need to know that I was hurting too
I felt the loneliness
I felt the emptiness when my new parents held me
When you were gone
When I couldn't hear your familiar voice
I was too little to put it into words, but I cried out for you
I wanted YOU to hold me
I wanted to hear YOUR voice
But it didn't work that way
Life gave me hurt and loneliness
But you knew that your plan was good
And that your love was bigger than the pain
It would have been so easy for you to hold me tight and never let me go
But you were too strong for that
You knew what your love would do
You knew the pain would heal
You knew I needed my mom and dad
And you knew they needed me
You knew I would be loved
And that when love is shared it grows
I know that love
I feel it every day
Every time my mom picks me up and holds me
Every time my dad laughs at some little thing I do
When they wake me up to squeeze me in the morning
And when they put me down in bed for night
I know that I am loved
This is love
You died inside when you showed your love
You sacrificed your world for me
I will always remember what you gave
You gave me life
You gave me my parents
You gave me love
This is love
5 comments:
Aww Emily! I know this has to be hard for you guys! What a cute little guy though! Take care of that sis!!
em, he is here safely and hopefully already off oxygen etc... give our best to stef and know you all remain in our prayers. post all the pics you can. i'm sure i speak for others when i say that we feel as if we're a small part of all this. may peace be with your sister and everyone involved.
What beautiful words that you shared at the end of your post! They truly do hit home. (gulp) My prayers are with all of you. We love you guys! :)
Emily, what adorable pictures! Please give your sister a huge hug and know that our prayers are with you guys. -Linford's
I know you are giving your sister all the love and support you can. What an amazing, selfless person she is to be doing this. I hope that you are also feeling love and support for you. This is an emotional and difficult time for all of you. You all have a huge network of people ready to swoop in and shower you with love. Savor every moment with that beautiful baby boy.
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